Fear...

that's the only thing I know how to describe what I'm feeling...

Scared...

that the one thing that's going the way I want is the one thing I fear it will make me fall...

What's going on with me???

Hoping to enjoy more than what I'm enjoying now...
For I can't help seeing myself broken again...
falling again...
left behind again...

Can't seem to enjoy the moment...

so I gotta enjoy the silence... once more.