I just realize that I'm falling apart...

I can't still be here searching for something I don't even know if it will come my way...
I can't keep on trying if it will end in nothing...
I just can't hang on to that happiness... That I don't even know where it is...
I'm just falling... falling apart in every way...
And still I can't fall apart... cuz I'm just getting to old to have these kind of crisis...